I am sorry...

Life is just about choice. I made a wrong choice again, TV and phone, I choose phone. I wouldn't wish to elaborate more, but well let's just forget all about it. There's just this coincdence, 1 of them have a ringtone of "大哥" which i don't know till another recommend me "Never Let You Go". What a coincdence, one is cantonese version another is english, sang by Janice. Haiz... A emo song, nice i would say... This song will definitely remind me of this 2 person..

Ok enough for my emo at this point of time, i should just move forward... I hope my dream won't change... go army, go uni (local or overseas) it depends. Hais.. I just don't wish to get involve in another r/s till then bah... sick, tired and feeling like a loser. DAMM!! in the mean time, i just have to work and work like a slave bah...

Flor- I am sorry I really hurt you so much. I just dunno how to phrase it out to you. I guess there's better guyz out there than me. I am just a coward, jerk ass. I am really sorry, I know it's craps, i just say sry, and sry really doesn't mean any shit... But yes, sorry.

21 yrs old? Mature Adults? Am I ?

i am so sianz!! omg... we are all turning adults... Why do i say that?

Attended Waicong, Grace Chee, Keekim, keepoh, Geraldine and Weikang's 21 bday... Grace Quek baby also 1months old le... WOW!!! We are all so old.. but why am i still so indecisive? Been really slogging at work and no time to really sit down and think about it... Haiz..

*pondering*

STTC- SUX to the CORE!!!

What have I to say? I am really damm tired... Can't seems to enjoy any momment out there after graduating... Been working like a mad cow... Some aunties and uncles at kopitiam can say wah, u work so much to earn for what? Even my friend who saw me ask me and I short of cash.. Well, I don't think i need so much, and i didn't know my job was that demanding when i sign the contract.

Since the start of project, everyday is OT, and on weekends i still have to work. So what is that? Do i really have a choice? Things are not going my way, army letter received and it's not NDU, but tekong... NTU rejected my application, chances of NUS just seem so slim.. WTH?! Been thinking optimistically, well they dont want me, i can just go overseas.. but how? i still got fucking 2 years to serve. Plan for future just seems to be so screwed up. So do i actually have time to think for relationship?

I am seriously unsure whether I should... I felt guilty for dragging, but I am just unsure of it. I don't even have time for my family and friend out there... I promised then supper session before I graduated till now... I want go swimming weekly, I wan go there and there... WTH!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?! But do i really have those extra times? Why do I always have to make a decision? GF or NO GF? Enjoy or work? Life just sux when you have to made a choice, and you won't know what opportunity cost you would be missing when you made the wrong choice. In short, life is never easy, it simply SUX to the core!!!